Funeral

They call me a killer
Cos I have been murdering beats
You pour me a liquor I'm taking a sip
You call me a loser I know what you mean
You calling me father forgive all my sins
Cos I am a sinner I live in my dreams
I put my life in these bars and I promise
That I will be saying a couple of things
I have been given a mission
I know what I'm doing
I'll do it and do it again
Rap is a vision and music is calling
But I will not do it like Abel and Cain
Living my life in depression
I know what I'm facing
I'm probably living in pain
Going to sleep and I look at my dreams
I'm having a feeling that I will be great
I will be great
Looking for happiness do it in vain
All of my efforts are going to waste
Having a moment of laughter and harmony
Give me a minute I'll push it away
People are saying I'm going insane
I think if my pride I give it a name
I realized that I'm having a couple of
(Oh oh) blood in my veins
Ive been a rapperr since I was a kid
I think I was born with the scar on my face
They call me a loser I told em its fine
But lately I feel like I'm going astray
Its kinda confusing I'm losing my mind
Cos me in the music is just a mistake
I do not know if I'll make it in music
But I will be fine I'm ready to wait
Yeah I'm playing my role
I do not care if I do it alone
A couple of people are here for the crown
But I am already the one on the throne
I was a loser when I was a child
But look at me now I'm already grown
Yeah lazy rappers walking on the road
But me, I'm ready to run
Yeah
It's my funeral it's crazy
You hate me? Erase me
Go six feet down like a baby
No one to bail me
I'm so filthy
Wait
Play me on MTV base
After that they said
Oh no Not again
This is my funeral
Pain is traina bury me I'm going integral
From the good to bad I'm pacifical
You don't wanna be my guest mahn I got some principles
This is amazing
I think that my vision is mentally breaking
I'm rating myself like I'm never gon make it
I said I don't care what the people are saying
But that is a lie
I'm dying in pain I can never deny
Depression is there when you look in my eyes
I'm tired of the comments they coming from people
They tell me to quit but I gotta try
They say that no matter how you say the truth
Society never gon change
I'm reaching out to the people
Who live in depression
Removing their shackles and chains
I'm taking a risk and my life is at stake
I'm chasing my dreams I dont care what you say
I'm talking about my depression and pain
In my music and hoping that someone relates
This is my destiny
Had an epiphany I'll be a star I'll make it eventually
Critics from people is killing my energy
They said I'm wack I'm losing my sanity
What is the point to your music they telling me
Messages popping I know why they stalling me
I'm not afraid of these people
I'm writing my story
I know that I'm making a history
Yeah
I focus on people that value my life
I don't care what you say I'm not changing my style
I do this for me I can only decide
Cos people don't care when you're hurting inside
They kill all your dreams and they feed you with lies
But none of these people are there when you cry
The reason you're stuck in depression
Is cos you let people to tell how you living your life
Oh no! Not again!
This is my funeral
Pain is traina bury me I'm going integral
From the good to bad I'm pacifical
You don't wanna be my guest mahn I got some principles