Die Happy (Eventually)

I used to want to live forever
Afraid of what comes next
Could be something better
Or maybe something much worse
Or nothing at all
And no matter how hard you search
There's no answer undisputed, and definitive
The tools we have to understand it all are limited
Some believe they have the one and only truth
Lots of belief, but no proof
So what can I say that I know for sure?
I feel like I exist in this world
But admittedly, that's my perception
Even that could be called into question
And where does that leave me?
In the dark for the most part, but not completely
We can take a few educated guesses
Regarding what life is, and what death is
Let's assume that I'm here for real
I live, breathe, perceive, and I feel
And at some point that ends
Already happened to some family and friends
Whether or not this has meaning
As of right now I'm still breathing
There's a lot I can do, I want to get it done
So when the end comes

I want to die
Happy
Not soon
But eventually
I want to die
Happy
Not soon
But eventually

My father-in-law, he just passed
And my wife took it so hard
It just happened so fast
Man, existing as a memory
My mind just can't grasp
I've decided I'm surviving
Till the sun, it goes gas
How hard could it be to exist?
Life be like it is, what it is, I've got kids
I've got plans to see them walk across the stage
And down an aisle
If I'm going out, I'm going out in style
Postcard from the heat death of the universe
Say that we had a good run
Suppose it could be worse
I don't think that humans gonna get the last laugh
Do we even ever fly our flags past half-mast?
And I've been dodging viruses, and violence
To use just like a montage
Full of politicians vile tricks
I'm not fooled
When somebody run up and call me brother
I'm not really feeling like
We're really out to help each other
So, I'm gonna have to do me, and mine
Tell the Grimmy Reaper
He can call me back another time
I've got family that tell me
All the time that they need me
To be honest, I'm kinda loving that feeling
I highly recommend it
Gonna have to lock it down, and maintain
Get my mind, and body better
So I must train
Have you look in wonder at the man I became
Player one wish to continue, I'm game

I want to die
Happy
Not soon
But eventually
I want to die
Happy
Not soon
But eventually

I want to die
Happy
Not soon
But eventually
I want to die
Happy
Not soon
But eventually