Ceilings

So there's really someone up there looking out for me?
Ashamed to admit there's a piece of me that still can't believe
And they say that there's reasons
In time you will see it
Ninety-nine percent of that might be true
But there's still that one
That still feels undone
And it's blocking the sun

But I still talk to ceilings
Like it'll give me a meaning
I've tried to shake of the feeling
It's easier said than done

And I've had it good compared to most
Some growing pains I'll never know
Ain't blind to the fact
I ain't got it that bad
But I still find it hard to float
When every swing is a miss
Cutting pieces to fit
The parts of me I don't know

And they told me these moments fit in some kind of plan
But when it's done and it's over claim that "It's just the life that they led"
So do I let things unfold? What parts can I take a hold of?
Do I trust a road that I didn't pick?
Hard to see through the thick
When all of me can't commit
And I don't know half the script

But I still talk to ceilings
Like it'll give me a meaning
I've tried to shake of the feeling
It's easier said than done

And I've had it good compared to most
Some growing pains I'll never know
Ain't blind to the fact
I ain't got it that bad
But I still find it hard to float
When every swing is a miss
Cutting pieces to fit
The parts of me I don't know

Ooh
And I've done it before, tried to settle my scores
Ooh
And I've thrown my hands up and I told him good luck
But it's never worked
Hard as I've rehearsed
I'm still mixing up all my words
So for better or worse
Guess I'm stuck in the verse
And I'm still left with her

I've had it good compared to most
Some growing pains I'll never know
Ain't blind to the fact
I ain't got it that bad
But I still find it hard to float
When every swing is a miss
Cutting pieces to fit
The parts of me I don't know