Secondary

Missed calls and mistakes
In the past but we still break
'Cause I just can't pretend you're not on my mind
With you it feels lonely
But I know that it's on me
'Cause I just can't say no to that distant smile

'Cause it's a smile that I can't read
And it's the smell of your coffee
Even still you're first place to me
I'd give you gold any day of the week

So I don't wanna be secondary
You fill up my head and it's kinda scary
If I take the leap will I just fall, fall, fall
You are a visionary but maybe I should be more wary
If I give you everything and get nothing at all, all, all
Will you be the soft place to land when I fall, fall, fall

I fight the urge to feel like I don't deserve you
The noise inside my head doesn't seem to turn down
'Cause we're two steps forward and three back
I look at you and have a heart attack
Finding the words to tell you that
I won't put up with silver if the gold lacks

So I don't wanna be secondary
You fill up my head and it's kinda scary
If I take the leap will I just fall, fall, fall
You are a visionary but maybe I should be more wary
If I give you everything and get nothing at all, all, all

Anticipated something more
But every single time a door was locked, you left
I watched you regress
And the technicolour fades to grey
Your ego wiped it all away
And I know I can't stay secondary
It's getting heavy
And I

I'm not gonna be secondary
You fill up my head and now it's getting heavy
'Cause when I take the leap, baby I just fall, fall, fall
(I fall)
And you are a visionary but maybe I should be more wary
If I give you everything and get nothing at all, no
You can't be the soft place to land when I fall, fall, fall
'Cause when the gold is gone, the silver moves on, on, on