fuck your feelings i need this more than ever II

Please help me out
You don't come around when i'm down down down
Im doing me til i'm in the ground and its all I ever wanted
Ooo
Yeah oo
Oh yeah

And i'm going hard on auto this is all I got hoe
Im alone forever me and my shadow having talks
You aint down to ride I already know that shit
They say ion ever miss I traded my life for this
If you asked me once id do it again
And I wont grab your hand ill die before I ask for help
Tryna make myself a name I don't want fame like everyone else
I put my pain out for the world to hear its so embarrassing
But I don't care what people say I know this world is mine
Threw my ego out along with pride a long time ago
And all I ever got was people treating me like stepping stones
Oh yeah i'm good off that its time to go
Oh yeah lets go lets go lets go
I got people waiting on me way back home say ima blow
Oh whoa
Yeah yeah I don't think your that wrong
I been working on myself that part of me you knew is long gone
And when shawty pull up on me I get super geeky geeky geeky
And if she don't like it when I do it I get super sneaky sneaky yeah

I cant hide the parts of me I wish I could
Everyone got a soft side or an evil side but not everyone good
Putting in work don't pop my hood
I keep doing what the fuck they should
I lost my heart now i'm losing my mind
No I cant afford to waste no time
Only thing I got in this life is music and my mom
Tryna take it from me you better come correct
This year i'm aiming at the neck
Promise its not disrespect
I just need this more than ever I really don't know what the fuck is next
I made my whole life a mess ask me who else do it best
Me and god having conversations begging him to change the plot
Imagine working your whole life then years later you in the same spot
You wont feel my pain until its you and boy I pray its not