Velvet Hearts

My life don't feel like mine
Mind foggy all the time
I just hope I'm not the only one
Cuz lonely is a load of fun
I'm hypnotized
Distractions minimized
The action in my mind
Is taking up my real life
Cuz I don't know what the rest of you see
But I can tell you that it's good enough for me
My own pride they try to take it from me
Smile but I can't fake it for you
You don't gotta
You don't gotta understand

I've been hurt too many times
Talked that shit and now you bitches went and crossed the line
I'm defined
As the one who keeps their feelings locked inside
On my mind
Thinking 'bout the shit that almost made me die

Cuz I can't help it
Keep in pain I'm selfish
And she helped herself
Into my heart that's hellish
And I don't know why
But she's coming to see me tonight
Cuz I can't help it
Make this shit to sell it
And I can't be jealous
Cuz she helped herself in
And I don't know why
But she's the one I have for life

Did I really say I had her for life man
If she ever leave she turn my thoughts straight into nightmares
If it's meant to be we're gonna need ourselves some high chairs
Mitchy don't act righteous
Thought you were so lifeless
Curse it on my life
Cuz she wants it every night
Alright
Let's get high
Smoked one time
Now she's mine
Issa sign
That our stars always align
Imma fuck you till you cry
Just so you staying in line
Yeah yeah

I tried to tell you
It's hard the find the words
My feelings will bottle up
When I see you they just disperse
And I know
Yeah I know
That it's just gon' end up worse
But maybe I'll have a chance
Destroying myself first
Cuz if I could save you
Maybe I could face you
But this vodkas tasting
Like I need saved too
Oh the things I say to
Just find my way
Right back to your thoughts
Right back to
You you
I just want the truth truth
Tell me if you want me
Tell me if you don't to
She just told me
Luke Luke
Try this if you feel blue
Open up your eyes
Realize that you wasting time
Cuz that shit isn't free man
I miss being whole
But I'm doing good with my pieces
Searching for some peace yeah
Let it beat yeah
Like my heart is speeding
You ain't saying nothing
But your silence loud as speaking
I'm just tryna freak yeah
Haven't hit my peak yet
Stay down till I come up
You won't even see me sneaking

So Imma let it be yeah
I done slaved for weeks yeah
And I was never free
Cuz she had the lock and key
Yeah I was never

Cuz I can't help it
But my heart is melting
And I helped myself
Into her heart that's velvet
And I don't know why
But she's coming to see me tonight
But I just need it
And I know I'm pleading
I can't stop these feelings
Fighting all my demons
And I don't know why
But she's the one I have for life