Place Yourself In Someone Else's Shoes

Place yourself in someone else's shoes
Imagine being born trapped in a body
Not embraced and protected as your skin surrounds
But held captive as you feel your being is not allowed

And as you try to find balance and figure it out
Your body keeps developing, your chest screaming loud
You imagine shedding your skin to change its look
You try to hide and cover, being your own worst crook

And what you feel in your heart to truly be you
Is attacked by intrusive ideas that confuse even more
Every mirror is a reminder of what you not wish to be
Every night sleeping you feel body parts you wish would leave

To make matters worse you are constantly questioned
You are expected to have an answer and to know what you wish
Though feeling disoriented from the way my body carries me
Does not mean I know how for godsake it should be

I have always felt it to be wrong and not fitting
Like a pair of heavily oversized clothing or too tight strings
An attempt to find a one size fits all suit is impossible
To demand me to shape as such seems irresponsible

If somebody would call you out by the wrong name
Would you accept it or walk up to them to complain?
To me that happens on a daily base
To the point where it gets tiring to even try to make my case

Defeated, anxious, unaccepted and strange
You make me feel all of that because I want to change
Change my body so it can feel to me as a home
For my body to me my friend instead of feeling so alone

You might not fully grasp all of these notions
It's complexity haunts me and distresses me as well
Yet I know that as it stands I am not the best version of me
All I wish is to release this inner demon and feel free

I just wanna be free
I just wanna be me