True To Me

Yeah I been gone for a while, and honestly I can say that I have missed it
No I won't cap on you all now, I'm worried that nobody still thinks I'm gifted
Almost a year I was ghost, I'm hoping that some of you all still see the vision
Saw all the comments saying "where did he go?" and I could have replied but I didn't
I was ashamed that I couldn't say when I was jumping back in it for sure
Was still with my parents, with so many people in here was no time to record
At first I accepted it for what it was, too content with not yearning for more
But then I had started to notice my dreams had gone up with one foot out the door
That hit me harder than anything I had ever been hit with before
Then all of my feelings of fine got replaced with a sadness and dreadful remorse
Usually I quit when it starts to get hard 'cause I'd rather do that than endure
The feeling of failing but something was telling me that I should stay on the course
I turned my back on everybody who'd given a damn about me and my life
The count was at nine so that means I had one second left to get back up and fight
I know that it's gonna take time, I can't make it all up in just one single night
But I know that if I'm gonna do it I got to stop going against what is right, so

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I picked up more hours at work and just started saving hell of bread
Told myself if I wanna get back to it I need do every little thing I can
That meant reducing money I was spending and increasing money that I'm bringing in
Sacrifice every little thing right now to bring back what brought happiness inside my head
The thing that saved me hell of times from suicide, how the fuck did I neglect that?
The thing that helped me with expressing myself
It's been so long I took a few steps back
Progression is slow got a long way to go, I lost time that I will never get back
Got to do what I can to get back where I was to pick up where I'd willingly left at
I knew that I had to get out if I wanted to pick the pen back up again
I put my head down and just grinded it out, for my sanity I would pretend
That I had no throwing issues with throwing away precious months of my life for a ben
Every day was the same, my whole life had turned gray
All the days were just starting to blend
324 days is how long I went without music
To everyone that is a year but it felt like eternity, I was gonna lose it
I left all my bullshit excuses behind, now discipline's what I am choosing
My word don't mean much but I'll change that with time, now I'm gonna just go out and prove it so

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