Nocturnal Nightmare

Well, you got me here now didn't you?
Aw man, y'all ain't got no idea just how badly
I'm about to come for all your necks
Oh yeah you're waiting for me to drop right?
You're waiting for the beat to go off and for me to start spazzin' off?
Well guess what?
I don't had to wait my whole damn life
For you to start believing that I know what I'm talking about
So you know what?
You could wait just a little bit longer for me to start rappin'
Cause that's all this shit is right?
A waiting game?
Haha! Uh. Uh.

Damn J, is this how you comin now?
You always doin too much and it's usually funny, but nigga you gotta calm down
But why's that? Too soft for me to strike back?
Too sensitive for wise cracks? Nah, I'm serious before I relax. HA
Let's get something straight. I ain't been going that hard, cuz i got too much into my plate
But if it's okay with the peanut gallery. I got some things I can think of to say
Or maybe you wanna beat me to my problems
Cuz I forgot you know me better than I do
I forgot you walked a mile in my shoes
And i forgot you were there helping my progress
But you weren't, so SHUT UP!
You not helping me so SHUT UP!
How's that feel? I used to hear the every
SHUT UP! NAH nigga, I'm talkin so WHAT UP
I aint quiet no more, it's my time to shine
You old bastards never asked for this but it's time to get it line
It's TIME ITS TIME, face me niggas, look in my eyes!
Ain't no way that I'm containing all this anger till i die
You gone listen to me now DAMMIT, you gone pay your price
If what i'm sayin you don't like well TOUGH TITTIES, it's my time
I try to sleep at night but I might as well get up and grind
It's like tryna stop a speeding train going off the lines
Spending' too much time on their health instead of mine
But I'm the one that's being selfish, did I get that right?

Maybe if I stayed in the place that you had made for me
Instead of tryna burn that stupid old generation seed
We coulda seen some progress at a much earlier age you see
And I coulda been doing everything I know was made for me
I could be doing Junior shows and rappin' on that stage
And we'd be seeing all my talents and I would be in the making
She'd be saying I'm a good boy before she ups and takes her leave
Or maybe she'd still be here cuz I wouldn't've run her patience deep
That's ten years of guilt still running through my veins
I'm bleeding out onto these pages tryna document my pain in ink
Cause that's the only way to keep me from cutting them hate to see me
Lose all the respect I gained because of my hate for me

DAMN thats dark as hell like where that come from, you spazzin out
I aint seen you that mad since you and ya auntie had it out
Like straight gas and hate masked to make you look like a great pastor, you
Throwin' stones from a fake castle, that fake castle just made of glass
Forgive me oh my lord i know I'm saying things you don't support but
I been kicked around too long i'm not a ball im not a sport
I know i swore my girl that id watch my mouth but thats before they
Tested me before you walk on me your blood gone mop the floor
I'm really sorry, but my head tryna feed me static
Don't mind me, my boy i just need ten minutes to be dramatic
Matter of fact. hey y'all, you wanna see some magic?
Here's a li'l trick i like to call, see you bastards
It's when I climb to great heights like it's zumanjumaro
And then i drop straight down until i see tomorrow
One trick and I promise imma leave you alone see I just need my demons gone
Cant speak too long, you'll see whats wrong

If i hit my downfall i'd rather it be my own fault, than
Let some sucka nigga try to take me out my own home
Without so much a warning like a no call or a no show
Like they done fired me like "hey buddy time to go home"
I'm getting' fat up in the belly but i'm still eatin'
Cuz that's the only thing I know to do for no reason
It's in season the spices got my mouth bleedin'
I might as well be eating' peppers w my demons

I won't tell you what i'm dealin' with cuz its you that I prioritize
But don't you dare try to act like its excuses and Im tryna lie
My baby aint gone like this but there's but there's nothing you know of my life
You'd COWER in the face of what ive dealt with, take a fuckin hike
It was my voice that was stolen, but I'M the one who can't shut up
Being verbally assaulted. but I'M the smart mouth pushing luck
You try watching as they pin every tail that they can
Got your back against the wall, can't do anything but stand

So here's my advice; hop up off my cock, cuz i do
Everything i can for you and me, so imma talk
I stay up night to listen to you so you're not alone
So i don't wanna hear im stupid or naive, a simp, STOP
Damn, what's a man to do to get respect, cuz if I
Pop the hell off it means I'm crazy or a dick, so there's
No real way to win. i guess that this is it
Imma murder all you suckas than im off to slit my wrists HAH I
I'm just bustin' at ya chops it's what i do best
I confess my problems but i'm just messin' with you
Nigga im a mess, you knew it, but im still the best to do it
But you know, forget the rules, i know i failed the test im stupid
Lemme shut my eyes tight. Ain't no way this real life
Ain't no way i'm still kicking and still got some fight
Wrote this song through my nights, took me two months to write
It's a Nocturnal Nightmare, it's a world without a light, let's go