Falling Apart

I know you want to end it all
A lot of shit that goes unsaid
Memories itch the surface
It's got a hold of your head

My fears squealed like a howling dog
And nostalgic tears with a clenching jaw
Slushie legs, so I fall to the floor
No one can hear me through these walls

My shirt is drenched with my nervous sweats
Depression hits when you live like this
I feel alone, so I'll walk some more
The hardest part is when I'm on the floor

There's no choice but to keep on going
Half the time, I don't even know when
I have a heavy heart
And it's falling apart
And I start to fall hard

When life's hard, I start to kill my mind
I'm killing my mind, I start to kill my mind
When life's hard, I'm killing my mind
I start to kill my mind, and I'm killing my mind

Inside my head resides the garden of Eden
The flowers bloom, but the demons sleep in
Take a bite, I don't need a good reason
Corrupt my mind just to keep on breathing

I wonder how it looks on the other side
Beyond the garden, I can see the horizon
I'll drown this place with my thoughts and my sorrows
Am I really falling apart?

Constantly thinking of alternative reasons I should stay
It's easy to say I'm not enough and never participate
Momentary bliss from this hit always seems to dissipate
And now I'm falling apart

There's no choice but to keep on going
Half the time I don't even know when
I have a heavy heart
And it's falling apart
And I start to fall hard

When life's hard, I start to kill my mind
I'm killing my mind, I start to kill my mind
When life's hard, I'm killing my mind
I start to kill my mind, and I'm killing my mind

My fears squealed like a howling dog
And nostalgic tears with a clenching jaw
Slushie legs so I fall to the floor
No one can hear me through these walls

I'm falling
I'm falling
I'm falling apart
I'm falling
I'm falling
I'm falling apart

And when life's hard, I start to kill my mind
I'm killing my mind, I'm killing my mind
And when life's hard, I start to kill my mind
I'm killing my mind, I'm killing my mind