Don't Remind Me

Don't remind me
Don't remind me
Don't remind me
At the lowly age of 10 I was no one
Except a kid who let in hatred, hence the problems
I had no other options or a way on how to solve them
Alone with no way to escape this engrave of enragement
Living life a basic
Every day I faced it
Until I lost the patience to sit and wait for changes
Instead I had to change it
Bullied by the older kids because they couldn't make it
The bitter truth, I tasted it
The fact that this world doesn't care who it hazes
No friends, time was muffled
I was puzzled on why I had to play like a double
The fake me was praised while I hustled
For notoriety and friends who could be trouble
I did find a couple
And realize that we were nothing alike
That was middle school and the middle of my life
As time flies I feel like I'm a poltergeist

So please don't remind me of the pain and the struggle
Please don't remind me of the hate I had to muscle

Staying in the ghetto as a tiny little fellow thinking everything was mellow as I slept without a pillow on a concrete floor with the bed bugs cause they got inside the rug so we had to cut it up off the ground
Every day I woke up sore as prayed to lord asking why did I endure all these hardships
Moving constantly from apartments
Apartment to a house
A house to a trailer
A trailer to apartment
Then right back to a trailer

So please don't remind me of the noodles with no flavor
Please don't remind me that I didn't have a savior
Please don't remind me of the solitude, resentment, the malice and the mischief
The way how I learned what the word contempt meant

I do not need reminding of every single time me my family were confined to a time full of bindings
The darkness I was eyeing so do not take me kindly
The nights of little dining
The times I struggled finding what love was
As if it didn't even exist cause I felt that my grandma was the only one I missed as she left me at the early age of 12
That's when I started to rebel and seen this cursive hell and realized I'm a misfit
It was always the survival of the fittest
Which left me contempt to turn on my pivot and trust no human being in existence
But I had the resistance to deal with all the tension

So please don't remind me of the times I spent nights crying
Please don't remind me of the memories of hiding from this hellish earth I spent residing
Please don't remind me why I have no heart inside me

Don't remind me
Don't remind me