Collapse (feat. Ras-hop)

Well I can build it all up pull myself right out of that dirt
And I can pull it down just as fast and say I'm not hurt
I can make brash decisions say it's mental illness
Then I'll disappear for weeks
Lock myself in the house and never wonder what's happening on the streets

I don't really care anymore about making plans
They fall through and I don't really know what for everything comes to an end
Can't say anything feels the same, anything I did for fun
If I had to think about it too much depression is suspect number one

I will wait so patiently for someone to come rescue me
But I don't want it to be myself this time
I'm falling for my own pantomime
Gaslit myself too hard and I'm falling through the stars
And I don't wanna fall into a relapse so I
Gotta collapse, I let it collapse

Well I can cry it all out wait until I'm no longer manic
I can scream and cry and punch the wall and then I truly panic
Have I recovered or have I smothered the symptoms so deep
They ask what's wrong and I say I'm tired, that I just need to sleep

I will wait so patiently for someone to come rescue me
It cannot be myself this time
I'm falling for my own pantomime
I will gaslight myself so hard
I do not know what's the truth anymore
There is a pending relapse
But everything is just collapsed



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Writer(s): Abby Burkholder
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