The Blackened Sea

I'm a blackened sea
My consciousness a lonely boat
In the dark
Constantly driven
By the breeze of thoughts
Everything else lies in the depth
Or haunts me from the infinite vastness
But they are there
They live within the ocean that is me

Eaten by white walls of torn apart
And twisted recreated memories
No foghorn to prevent
No stars to stay on target
No anchor heavy enough to hold
I sail through undead creatures
Beyond any myths
Lost among cruel personalities
Disturbed by forbidden desires
That appear and disappear
Until I make my peace with them

They are there and scare me
Dancing madly through my dark water
They whisper and scream
Rise up the waves
I feel alone outside of my high sea
I'm afraid
They make me sick
They drive me insane

Tormented by my emotions
A restless surface that lets me know
I'm still alive
I, Struggling against the whimpering wind
that's howling its mendacious narratives
I maintain the equilibrium
In their conjured storm of fear
A never ending maelstrom
From here to the end of my horizon

Evil spirits spin their mournful yarn
Of indifference around my rotten
Hull of dreams
They drag me down
Into a lunatic void
Hollow screams underwater
A loneliness that is not heard
That never wants to be heard

There will be
Never enough scope
For the inscrutable ocean
Of the lone man