Falling

Last year I was down so bad the shit was sad
Mentally was lost wasn't sure if I'd find it back
Fighting hell of a demons couldn't keep 'em off wit a jab
So defeated but proceeded to give it all that I had
Calling to the lord it's like my prayers weren't working
Silly me thinking that i was one of his favorites
Been at it for a while having doubts that I'll never make it
Wherever my life takes me I promise to never take it
Yeah
But I contemplated it once
Nina on my night stand my girl on my right hand
Thinking bout what she a probably do the day my life end
Knowing that she wanna be together for a lifespan
Falling out with friends I got away from even my fam
Drifting off track I got away from all that I planned
Missing what we was now i don't even know where I stand
Told me it was love but i didn't feel the shit so I ran
Doctors diagnosed me with psychosis
Yeah
My Mind was broken and niggas ain't even notice
A week away from the ones that I kept the closest
I took a break from the music I had to focus

On Medicine just to help the hallucinations And
the sleepless nights when my thoughts are usually racing
and the paranoia on top of the shit I'm facing
Tryna keep it all together while pacing with agitation man
Who knew that my life a be like this
Niggas I called brother not around because they switched
Relationships I felt would last forever can't be fixed
Found a common enemy in me so they became clique
Running thru my city all alone with just my blick
Know that niggas scheming but I see em they not slick
Nightmares of the bottom ima chase a dream till I'm rich
On the same timing I was on before i got sick
This time God catch me if I fall
Rather lean on you then alcohol
Tryna live honest for my daughter but it's hard
You know I ain't perfect but I'm working on my flaws
Buried in my sorrow tryna cover up my scars
We no longer talk and you the reason it was caused
I been on a mission tryna get it with out pause
All i ask from you is when I do is your applause
This shit light



Credits
Writer(s): Jeremahl Jones
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