Thanks Again

The times that I faced it
Are small next to the years that I've wasted
Tears tasted to scared to ever have chased it alone
Erased and defaced by my own trepidations
Heart racin' at the thought of embracing my gay shit
Always a fear that people would say shit
End up hating myself and just scraping by

Well it was six years before I let my best friend know
First had to go toe-to-toe with chemical overdose
My thoughts were verbose all about self-expression
I'm second guessin' then something made me question
I married a man with perfect self accession

Because he let it all out, was never scared to be
On the other hand was me in a fight to be free
And it hurts to see
Minds never at ease
As they see they may be society's debris

Hey
What can I say?
Hello I'm gay
Not without you my Nate
Thank you everyday
Hey, what can I say?
Hello I'm gay
Want you to know
Not without you my Nate
Thanks again

Well like my guitar this song represents a past time
Right now as I write my thoughts are stuck on rewind
Reversed was well versed in thinking the worst
Celebratin' myself for a whole new design
As I blinked and found that I stood on the brink
I taught my mind a whole new way to think
With help I gained a new sense of hope
But years before were a slippery slope

Well I was cracked and torn
I was scathed and worn
Starved of touch and slave to porn
I fight the flames and the hands that broke
In a one-man battle against myself

Well I saw in my head
No light I was dead
Insanity that I wed
Led to be widespread

But the self-abuse
It left me shook
And it left me bruised
And my childhood took
Except

Hey
What can I say?
Hello I'm gay
Not without you my Nate
Thank you everyday
Hey, what can I say?
Hello I'm gay
Want you to know
Not without you my Nate
Thanks again

Hey
What can I say?
Hello I'm gay
Not without you my Nate
Thank you everyday
Hey, what can I say?
Hello I'm gay
Want you to know
Not without you my Nate
Thanks again



Credits
Writer(s): Sebastiano Truda
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