Heal My Scars

Trauma been piling, but you see me smiling
I'm trynna put lights on my family name
Barely be dialing, but I call my mama
And check how she doing I know she in pain
I know that she fighting the demons of change
Prioritizing her so we can hang
Know when she gone I'll never recover
I'm trynna put her and my pops in a plane
So they can fly high way up in the sky
And see every city they wanted
How come I cry cry cry every night
With the blessings that God has anointed
Know it's because I think they disappointed
Living this life and don't know if I want it
This is my therapy, but I fall back into habits
The minute that I am confronted

Can the sunshine if it's covered in rain
Does a bandaid stop all the pain
And look it's fine if you don't wanna change
But you're gonna lose way more than you gain
When I when I
When I, When I heal my scars
When I when I
When I, When I heal my scars

Tell me how you plan to stop the violence with a Pepsi
Speak against the murders then they probably gon arrest me
Had to clear my mind, I swear to God I been attempting
Man I miss my homies so it's R.I.P to Pimp C
Hitting the melodies so that it's easier for you to soak up the message at hand
How many children do we gotta lose before government actually work out a plan
How can you say that you taking a stand
Most of the people do not comprehend
That the people that's fixing the problems the ones that'll try to kill us in the end
Off of the world, drifting internal
Time that I started to clean off the porch
I need to heal
From all the damage when I was assaulted in back of the Porsche
Starting to feel
My time is limited and I should probably start passing the torch
All of my scars are cuts on the knee
Except I never got back on the court

Can the sunshine if it's covered in rain
Does a bandaid stop all the pain
And look it's fine if you don't wanna change
But you're gonna lose way more than you gain
When I when I
When I, When I heal my scars
When I when I
When I, When I heal my scars

Full transparency
I'm turning into the man I was scared to be
And honestly
I guess I was never prepared to be
Cause I never beat my demons
I never changed my flaws
I never shared my feelings
I never found the cause
Now I'm all alone
Gave up too early on building a home
Just to put focus on chasing a dream
I'm starting to see my decisions were wrong
All of my pain's a glove
I wear as I walk the moon
I'm still afraid to love
Because I'm scared to lose

Can the sunshine if it's covered in rain
Does a bandaid stop all the pain
And look it's fine if you don't wanna change
But you're gonna lose way more than you gain
When I when I
When I, When I heal my scars
When I when I
When I, When I heal my scars