You

Every single day
I feel the same damn way

I got all these thoughts in my head
Go to put 'em on paper and my mind goes dead
I don't know what to do so I just smoke instead
And the ash in my lungs keeps me moving ahead
While I lay in bed tryna clear my head
But every single time I just get lost instead
Lost in the depth, feeling close to death
My mind is like a god damn labyrinth, 'cause

I can never seem to move on
And I can never seem to belong
Anywhere I go yet somehow I know
That I will be missed when I go

And that's the one the one thing stopping me
From vanquishing this gravity
Cause I can't seem to let the weight
I've carried on my shoulders alleviate

I wanna cry but tears I lack
I think my body is holding them back
Because this god damn medication
Is almost like a fucking sedation

And I never wanted not to care
I wanted the pain to disappear
But clearly I've been self-destructive
I failed you even though you trusted

Me, and everything that I said
But then I had to go on and get a big head
Full of false hopes and impossible dreams
And I still don't know what any of them mean

And I'm still finding my way back to you
I'm in the dark but I'm following the tune
I hear you whistling from miles away
And I won't stop until I see your face

I wanna cry but tears I lack
I think my body is holding them back
Because this god damn medication
Is almost like a fucking sedation

And I never wanted not to care
I just wanted the pain to disappear
And clearly I've been self-destructive
I failed you even though you trusted me
You trusted me
You trusted me
You trusted me