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I wrote this on your birthday, bad timing right
But I guess there's never a right time to start a fight
This story might upset you
But I could never let you bury these thoughts
When I was there for all the dark nights
And the long plights for help was more like hell
When two of us could never just make the wrongs right
I write songs but I don't know how you cope with it
We're so different but our upbringing so alike
I saw the trauma but you act like you ain't care
When our mama wasn't there, and the darkness had us scared
And the karma didn't spare a single dollar for our prayers
We saved up on allowances in hopes of better years
But better is subjective, I wish I had better ears
You was seeing the growth and I was only seeing tears
From the same perspective
But you was the oldest so you were subjected
Responsible for me at only the age of 11
And we were traveling alone by the time we was seven
Eight PM in bad neighborhoods, we were still children
But I had learned from the time when we was followed by the guy
Who was drunk and had blurry eyes
To keep a pocket knife in my great denims
Was a child, horrified enough to take weapons
Every time we went outside just to make leverage
So if them kids on the block try us I ain't stressing
I ain't violent but don't assume that I ain't reckless
And at the time this was normal to us
We wasn't privileged so everything seemed foreign to us
And kicking it with other people sounded boring to us
But we were all we had and I think we ignoring to much
You took responsibilities you shouldn't have to
And I know it's different, you didn't have a dad too
Mama didn't really teach me so you felt you had to
Prolly' be dead or in prison if I didn't have you
You wasn't a role model but you played the role mama didn't
But act like you didn't whenever I ask you
You place her on a pedestal, that's way past you
Give her credit she don't deserve just so you can latch to
Memories of her cause you trying to circle back to
Pieces of a decent childhood, I guess that passed you
But it's too late to go back to, I think you know that
And maybe you moving forward instead of doing throwbacks
We're so afraid to loose face, we're twofaced
But we're to faithful, choose faith and forgave her, too late
It's too late to be grateful about the painful memories
We should be ashamed to, act like it's normal when it's not
Fall apart and fall into an emotional spot
And love cannot exist where communication is not
Where communication is not
I wanna talk about it, think we should talk about it
You don't wanna talk about it, so we ain't gon' talk about it
But we should talk about it, I think we should talk about it
You don't wanna talk about it, so we never talk about it
I wanna talk about it, I think we should talk about it
You don't wanna talk about it, we never talk about it
We should talk about it, I think we should talk about it
You don't wanna talk about it, so we never talk about it
Talk about it, think we should talk about it