Maybe

As I'm growing up life's teaching me lessons
I've self diagnosed with some clinical depression
Look at my reflection and got one question
Is the life I'm living right now really a blessing
I ain't got mates cos I cut niggas off
Don't hesitate when I cut niggas off
This ain't no rap cap shit this is real life shit
How can I bring fakes to the winners spot
Took a lot up out me cos I give a lot
Maybe it's the devil cos I sin a lot
Or maybe it's the genes stuck in my DNA then in which case imma pop a pill a lot

Or maybe I'll commit suicide
Maybe I'm wrong and everybody's right
Maybe I'm never gonna get it but I'm gonna try
Maybe I'm never gonna get it but I'm gonna try

Maybe I should hide but I'm never gonna hide
Maybe I should cry butI'm never gonna cry
Maybe I should die but I don't wanna die
Maybe I'm losing it, maybe I'm gonna find
I'm gonna find my way through this
The Lord knows that I'm tired of this nuisance
All these books about self-improving
But is it myself that I'm improving
Giving advice to everyone around me
Never getting advice from anyone around me
She told me I was a waste, I said don't ever doubt me
And when I bring in the cake, don't bring a plate around me
She told me that I was a waste of the skin that I'm in
Told me the successes I can taste ain't a thing
I'd probably end up dead if I listened to the bitch
Don't take in negativity, just cut it off quick

Maybe I'm gonna rise, maybe I'm gonna climb
Maybe I'm gonna beat odds and I'm ahead of time
Maybe my new shit will blow up in the summertime
Or maybe I'll commit suicide
Maybe I'm wrong and everybody's right
Maybe I'm never gonna get it but I'm gonna try
Maybe I'm never gonna get it but I'm gonna try

Put in all this work man I put in all this work
I wanna get the flowers 'fore I end up in the dirt
I wanna get the real recognition I deserve
Especially when I know all the devils I deterred
I'd rather regret than say what if
You don't tell me the truth you ain't solid
Came a long way from my broke days at college
Now I'm penning these songs that they need to acknowledge
Anyway I'm switching up the topic
When I sold food, never made no profit
I was never hard so they ticked and they promised
Never paid man back so I'd pay from my pocket
Damn, trappers gotta tell us 'bout the downsides too
I only chat for me I can't chat for my goons
If I said it then it's only ever gonna be my view
I only chat for me I can't chat for my goons

Maybe my niggas lied, maybe it's just I
Maybe I shoulda never trapped but I did try
Maybe I shoulda never rapped but I did try
Or maybe I'll commit suicide
Maybe I'm wrong and everybody's right
Maybe I'm never gonna get it but I'm gonna try
Maybe I'm never gonna get it but I'm gonna try



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Writer(s): Chef Risky
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