Goodbye

I feel like I ain't got too many days
No I'm not afraid
It's just a feeling
And Many days could really mean anything
But either way I'm being mindful
With the time that I've been given
If this is Goodbye
You should know that I love you
I stay away from trouble cuz the way I think of you
Kept integrity in tact
If they try to attack
Just kick back
You gotta know that's it's nothing
I built this reputation
It's gone speak for itself
I wear this heart on my sleeve
I wear this notch on my belt
Aware of my flaws so much I wear myself out
Still asking where is God
When he speak from my mouth
But They think I don't have doubts
They see my faith
And they don't see all the clouds
They don't see how I'm surrounded
By the wolves in sheep gowns
Or how's the crowds apply pressure
You don't wanna let down
Or how my biggest blessing
Is a bigger burden somehow
I Gotta watch what I say
So it don't shatter my face
You're credibility is all that's left
Once you in the grave
And When they talking bout me
I hope they talking bout Grace
I hope they talking bout Jesus
And how they met through my faith
I'm not saying I want the glory
I'm saying that the stories gon' point to him
And every testimony of my heart in action
It's just gon' show you I ain't capping
I'm just rapping what I'm living
Not just living what I'm rapping
Go and ask em
Ima brother
Not a pastor
Ima love em
Not attack em
We the sheep
This is the pasture
Life's a beach
But it's trashy
Before it turn to after
Ima speak about my master
Ima reach the ones that scattered
Ima seek the ones he after
Ima cease the devils laughter
Ima teach em from the chapters
Cut from the same cloth
But I'm the crease up in the fabric
Action speak louder but speaking is still an action
You ain't preaching what you preach
Unless you preaching what you practice

They'll say this isn't the way to start an album
Saying goodbye on the intro
Make it feel like an outro
I was told that it was heavy
It's alot to digest
What you see is what you get
You ain't seen nothing yet

I encourage you take your time and really live with it
I took my time to really find the words to my experience
I put my life on display for you to see how God moves
And if you really pay attention you might see yourself too

If my students are listening
I love you all like my children
What I tell you?
You gone get what you're giving(given)
Go on and be great
Cuz you don't no permission
Why go on being sorry
When you can be forgiven?

If this is goodbye
Know I'm leaving here with my hands empty
Whether belongings or love
Hope they say I shared plenty
Remembered by my loved ones
And my lovely wife Cindy
Remember
I was here for you to get a cross (across)