Party Mood

Not in the party mood
I just want to sit in my room
And think of nothing new
Thoughts that are pointless
Thoughts that are a mess

For those 152 days I felt the best
I can't contest
Felt that love bleeding out of my chest

So where has that gone?
Did I do something wrong? (Something wrong)
You know I'm not that strong
I'm not what you say

Cause all I hear is that feeling is mutual
That I'm not any different
Then why do I feel so alone?
So alone
So bored
And just, so tired

I'm tired but I can't sleep
Work piles up in heaps
And I want to get it done
Feel the absence of motivation

But I'm not sad
I'm just feeling sorry for myself
Being put up on that pedestal
It ain't too good for my health
Not at all

It's not that I don't want it
I just don't know how
To pick myself up from this hole
That I've been in for a long time now

It's a vicious cycle
Of saying that I'm fine
Then feeling empty as I'm being
Pushed across the finish line

And all I hear is that feeling is mutual
That I'm not any different
Then why do I feel so alone?
So alone
So bored
And just, so tired

I hope you see
What this has done to me
I hope you see
I hope you see

I hope you see
What this has done to me
I hope you see
I hope you see

Cause all I hear is that feeling is mutual
That I'm not any different
Then why do I feel so alone?
So alone
So bored
And just, so tired

Cause all I hear is that feeling is mutual (Why am I always so tired?)
That I'm not any different
Then why do I feel so alone? (Why do I feel so alone?)
So alone
So bored
And just, so tired (And just, And just)

Not in the party mood
I just want to sit in my room
And think of nothing new
Thoughts that are pointless
Thoughts that are mess