Death Is a Relief

Come and light the fire from every end
When our hands look old, when we smile at death
When the stars blur out, when our families die (will you think of me?)
Will I be there still? Will you still see me?

I am an ugly root
Knotting itself out of life
I want to breathe fire
I want to grind my teeth into dust

I was alive, now I lie
On my back in the dark, wounds opening up
In a meadow clearing, head turned
Smoke white pouring from my eyes

Drip me dry, feeding the earth
She deserves it more, should have spared her better
Wish I had more to give, if I could find myself, if I knew it then
Like you saw me now, I could hold you like you needed me to

It feels like I'm left behind
Watch how I'm eroding
Every time I'm all claw
Guilty for every rotting thought

It feels like I'm left behind
You deserve the world
I'm bleeding ash and tar
Never waking, I am guilty for it all