Sunday Scaries

In the meantime
I think that I should prolly go
I mean times ticking
Anxiety hitting I don't know
Every second feeling guilty I'm not out the door
Every feeling feels like wasted energy
No sacred entity
But I try to be
Only involving myself with honesty
Invoke a fishy feeling you get ghosted like Halloween
I'll get toasted and fall asleep
Hard to give an F bout people saying you bother me
With All theses issues in my lap
It's been hard to get perspective
Bending over backwards been my only self expression
Blessings can get depressing when people around you get jealous
Ain't no zealots in my mentions
Still eating mommas spaghett
I'm not tryna be facetious
But it's hard to tell
Whether I should love my enemies
Or my family that could quickly bail
People asking how I operate beyond the pale
Either feel me like braille
Or their talking sweet and tucking tail

I don't got a new whip no
I don't got a new bitch celebrate my two fifth
By like drinking two fifths
Don't care if the shoe fits
I'm trying to chase my next buzz
I like going to the clubs
And drinking just because
Don't like dwelling on the past
Because it is what it was
You feel threatened when I'm vibing
Bitch that's feeling kind of sus
Felt like everyone despised me since I was a young buck
But I'm proud of me
Feel like I'm the only one
What is it about me that turns everybody off
I'm the only one
That's not in on the joke
Loyalty to most but they don't share the same devotion
I grow bitter I'm eroding
Struggling to take a breath
On the surface shit is great
But I've been swimming in the depth
We're obsessed with cash but we don't know how to invest
And I like dollars in my pocket
But this worlds not making sense no