Roses

Stuck between ambition and settling down
Heavy is the head but it's my head with the crown
I miss all of my friends, feel like I'm letting them down
But the only time we talk is when I let it resound In a song
All of my thoughts feel like I'm getting them down
Sometimes I wanna just scream
Sometimes I wanna just chase
Sometimes I wanna go back to the days when I was just Jas
But life is moving even faster at a lightning quick pace
And they're keeping track on all the scores of all my mistakes
All regrets inside a harbor
Hope I make it to the harbor
And I would say it's sweet
But life is getting even harder
Like Samson, I lost my strength
Somebody get me to the barber
I miss all of my friends
And I would hate to have to name drop
But all this pain just weighs me down
Just ask me when the pain stops
Tasted just a bit of fame
I wanted all the fame stopped
Compare myself today

But in truth we ain't in the same spot
And that's the comparison
I hate that it's damaging
Come a long way
But I don't think I can manage it
Mommy still looks to me
Look at this weight that I'm balancing
I try and brush it off
But on the inside I'm panicking
Am I the one or just the wrong one
Like a mannequin?
I let you on on all my deepest thoughts
It's embarrassing
Still waiting on the day
It's my name but they canceling
I love to make music
But this music doesn't pay
I try to put the mic down
But I can't find a better way
Cause this music's my therapy
I lay it all bare
Even if they all scared of me
Hope it helps you
And it makes you a better me

I try and read the words
That I know they ain't telling me
Don't need to smell the roses
I'm at peace just to let it be
Yeah Don't need to smell the roses
I'm at peace just to let it be
Broke myself down
Just to get me some clarity
Shed all of my deepest thoughts
Thought I needed some therapy, yeah