unwanted houseguest

I seem closer to it now than I did when I was a kid
Cool chill across uncovered legs
Way my father's fists swim through the air
Clean white sheets on the bed
When he talked like someone possessed by
Something only he could see
He'd say it's not always what you believe, but the way that you do
Or don't still believe in me

Lately, I've had you on my mind
If I could only see it long enough to sketch it out

Have the mind of a house cat these days I feel
Can barely crawl my way through until six
Taking on new frustrations like tired unsellable homes
Paranoid and ghost-dense

All the time endlessly dreaming
With a face like that and a voice so alive
You could make the trains all run on time
Or wave thousands in library fines

Lately, I've had you on my mind
If I could only see it
Long enough to sketch it out (long enough to sketch it out)

This is not a house
It's just someplace where I'm living now
This is not a house
It's just someplace where I'm living now
This is not a house
It's just someplace I'm barely living now