I Live By Proxy

I don't know where to begin
So many things I wanna do
But I'm so scared to fail
'Cause in this world you're not allowed to

So I act like there is nothing to do
Laying on the floor of my bedroom
It's the only place I can stare at my phone
I live by proxy to not feel alone

I say I write sad songs but I'm not
I guess I lie, I think I am
I just don't know the reasons why

But how can I be with that perfect family
I should be grateful
With all these people who love me

So I want my life to start
Don't wanna wait anymore
I want my heart to love
I want my body to explore

I want my life to start
In the world in which I was born
I think I'm ready
To be a part of it
To be a part of it

Even in my songs I live by proxy
Because I tell others' stories
Because I don't have any experience on my own

I just make a vague memory
More beautiful of what it was
I make it rhyme in a few lines
And I sing a pretty melody

So I want my life to start
Don't wanna wait anymore
I want my heart to love
I want my body to explore

I want my life to start
In the world in which I was born
I think I'm ready
To be a part of it
To be a part of it

I'm tired of dreaming
Of what my life should look like
(I wanna be screaming), shouting out loud that I am alive
Living I could not die young

I want to do so many things
That I can't rest
Meet so many people
That I would know
Everyone and everyone would know me

So I want my life to start
Don't wanna wait anymore
I want my heart to love
I want my body to explore

I want my life to start
In the world in which I was born
I think I'm ready
To be a part of it
To be a part of it
(To be a part of it)
(To be a part of it)
(To be a part of it)



Credits
Writer(s): Arielle Morin
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