Praying For Better Days

Have you heard the flagging

The voices always telling me that Imma wind up dead
I cant be paranoid I gotta go and chase that bread
I don't wanna end up with some lead inside my head
Or end up dying from abusing all of these fucking meds

I'm praying for these better days without a lotta stress
I keep on coming up with lyrics more often than less
Without a doubt in my mind I feel that I am blessed
I keep myself occupied so I hear the voices less

In my life I know that I have dealt a lotta pain
But now I have schizophrenia shits not the same
I'm growing and I'm changing each and every fucking day
'Cause I don't wanna feel like I am causing any pain

Nowadays I deal with pain and dance within the rain
With all the pain I've dealt with I cant feel any shame
I understand that people probably think that I'm insane
But no one really understands just how far I've came

Sometimes I wonder how I got this far in my career
But then I think about it and remember why I'm here
I'm looking at myself and love the man within the mirror
I'm hoping one day I can make this pain disappear

Sometimes I reminisce all the good times that I had
I don't know how it went so quick from the good to bad
Then again I think about it and I cant be mad
I'm changing for the better and I'm turnt up just a tad

Living in the past doesn't really get me anywhere
I'm learning from mistakes my past haunts me everywhere
To take away the stress I blow vape clouds in the air
I'm hoping that one day god will answer all my prayers

I wanna wear diamonds round my neck and live a wealthy life
I wanna stack the millions in the air so high
Each and every day I gotta continue to strive
I'm still waiting on the day that I'll live a better life

The voices always telling me that Imma wind up dead
I cant be paranoid I gotta go and chase that bread
I don't wanna end up with some lead inside my head
Or end up dying from abusing all of these fucking meds

I'm praying for these better days without a lotta stress
I keep on coming up with lyrics more often than less
Without a doubt in my mind I feel that I am blessed
I keep myself occupied so I hear the voices less

I been on the inside of them brick walls
My family made sure that they gave me them phone calls
I had to grow up quick and grow some balls
This isn't one of my only massive downfalls

They gave me twenty four months of probation
I gotta be careful with the stipulation
Cops be out here tryna use manipulation
Either way it goes its a messed up situation

When they come around I get a funny sensation
Gotta stay on probation for the whole duration
So I been making music tryna give it dedication
I keep on working out while maintaining hydration

Going from old to new ways changing for the better
From me doing time to being a goal-getter
For days I was waiting for someone to send a letter
Thank god they didn't put me on another tether

The voices always telling me that Imma wind up dead
I cant be paranoid I gotta go and chase that bread
I don't wanna end up with some lead inside my head
Or end up dying from abusing all of these fucking meds

I'm praying for these better days without a lotta stress
I keep on coming up with lyrics more often than less
Without a doubt in my mind I feel that I am blessed
I keep myself occupied so I hear the voices less