If I Ever (Saw the Old Me)

If I ever saw the old me I would say things
Like your dad would stay the same he isn't changing
Like they will not treat you fair when you cut off all your hair
The damage soon will be repaired 'cause you's amazing
Don't you give up on your dreams even when it seems
Re-inventing these L-Y-R-I-C's
Is impossible improbable you're on top and unstoppable
When you pop off you got the flow shh
But your papa he's not to know
Calculated and stubborn and our dad hated our mother
But know that made it our mission to try to listen to others
We learned that bullies are victims
And everybody looky but missed it all the fist hits
That he got from his daddy to try to make him feel he's this big
Now his kid is the biggest misfit
You wonder why you hit things 'cause that's what he taught you
You don't open up 'cause he's not someone you can talk to
He'll turn around and block you really try and stop you from being yourself
Don't ever let him convince you that you need his help
I think that he just resents you 'cause he's seeing himself
In you and the vicious cycle's not repeating itself
'Cause if I ever saw the old me I would thank her
When she at the bottom of the ocean with an anchor
'Cause she's the only one that knows me and my anger
I don't have all the answers but

You need to control it be in the moment
Otherwise it takes hold of your life and you'll regret if you're chosen
By the demons devoted to try to keep your emotions
As unstable as possible try to seek you and grow with you
Believe your opponent has evil components
You're feeling like breathing's an omen you're feeling alone and
You do what you can you fear the unknown and you keep on the low
It's a high demand to reap what you sow and you weep 'cause you know
That you always gonna live misunderstood and nobody knows you not for sure
You went and stood in the face of death with a sudden hope to find the cure
I shoulda told you it ain't the way but I'm gonna let you make mistakes
'Cause you gotta fall and feel the breaks before you can grow on up and mature
You're as hard-headed as they come but take a look how much you've grown
Don't sit and think the journey's done 'cause there's so much you need to know
Like where you're coming from so you can figure where to go
'Cause it ain't ever until you're stumped that you see clearly all the roads
If I ever saw the old me I would say this
Put all of your feelings on a playlist
When you're mad for several hours better be careful when you scowl
Try to be special you have the power to be the greatest
I know you better than you know yourself fiend for love when no one helps
So you think if you rebel seek out drugs and get expelled
Thing will turn out better well now you're used to letter "L's"
Life was like a living Hell tell the world just how it felt
Judgement for the way you dress something I don't even get
Judging who you choose to date tell 'em but it's you who hates
I'm promoting sharing love I don't care if you are straight
Doesn't make you more than us disagree but we don't judge
Why can't you all do the same instead you try to shame the gays
Saying we should change our ways claiming that it's God who aimed
All your hate is not to blame I'm about to pop a vein
You think that we'd choose to be this way like there's a single fucking thing
That we've got to gain
Except for hatred
Violence
Degradement
Fighting
Aiming
Hiding
Blaming
Divided
There ain't no benefits to coming out a closet that don't let us in
Whether it's your dad who lost his temperament
Even though it's evident but not really so relevant
Or they don't talk about it and it becomes the elephant
My element