Mental Relief

I'm tired of darkness
So I been searching for better days
I guess I'm growing
I'm starting to learn some better ways
I've been relentless
And passionate
And I'll never change
Jack of trades
I'm king
Lets call a spade a spade
I know they probably thinking like is he still rapping
And then they hear how I spit it
And say he still snapping
Thats when they be like he nice
But can it still happen
That's when I see my reflection
And say it will happen
A few minor set backs
For the come back
Sticking to the plan I've created
Like Ima thumbtack
Long hours wit the work
Prolly should pack a lunch bag
Sometimes when life knock you down
Don't just get up Nigga punch back
You got to be ya best version of self
And lately I've been having a different urge
For the wealth
I'm bigger on energy
Swerving you not a friend to me
Then be mad when I curve
But deserve the shit that you felt

I
I know
You been through a lot
But I don't
Know
Why
You won't
Try to understand what I'm on
See I been through way too much
Way too much
And I got shit on my mind
Baby I do not have
No time
To play
Hmmm

Trying to leave the past in the past
Exes hit my line but I say I'm good and I pass
How can I move forward
If constantly looking back
And the pain that I always mask
I revisit after we smash
Them shoulda coulda woulda
Never woulda made a difference
Coulda kept it sexual
Without the same commitment
But even that can be risky
When emotions involved
Fucking each other
And someone else can cause some resentment
Moving on to bigger and better things
Travel tropical climates
And places I've never seen
I escape in these women
Surrounded by foreign tings
While still feeling alone as if I was quarantined
This day and age
Folks rarely do what they pose to do
The women play like Niggaz
And Niggaz get too emotional
Claim they wanna see you win
But got visions for both of you
So if you get to far
There's limits on how far they'll go for you

I
I know
You been through a lot
But I don't
Know
Why
You won't
Try to understand what I'm on
See I been through way too much
Way too much
And I got shit on my mind
Baby I do not have
No time
To play
Hmmm