high school sweetheart

Honey I lied
Moving out of state I went out of my mind
Took a few nights
Blew all my money without even trying

You said to follow dreams
Didn't want to leave as much as you wanted
I'll go so I can face my fear
Knowing you'll never care if I'm alone

Because I couldn't sleep when you said it's like everything
Else in your life didn't care about anything
Middle of the week, 40 oz and I'm dancing in the street
Blacking out, waking up in another person's dream

We both know
It's toxic turning the clock back to the
Times we know
Stranded in bed homesick 'cause you are my home

Moved to a city where they don't know LA
I was being nice, said I needed a change of pace
I believed in your hopes, what you needed the most
Held back my own 'cause I always came second
So why would you think that I left you alone

We go in circles, we go in circles
We go in circles, we go in circles
You were yourself on the weeks that you tried
You were nonverbal, you and your vices
You leaned on bourbon, I tried my best but
Maybe what you needed was the time

Because I couldn't sleep when you said it's like everything
Else in your life didn't care about anything
Middle of the week, 40 oz and I'm dancing in the street
Blacking out, waking up in another person's dream

We both know
It's toxic turning the clock back to the
Times we know
Stranded in bed homesick 'cause you are my home

Wish I never told you
I know that I deserved it too
I never said it but it hurt me too
Wish I could be strong like you

Wish I could've told you that
I would've done it all again
Wish I never had to choose
Wish I could be strong like you

Because I couldn't sleep when you said it's like everything
Else in your life didn't care about anything
Middle of the week, 40 oz and I'm dancing in the street
Blacking out, waking up in another person's dream

We both know
It's toxic turning the clock back to the
Times we know
Stranded in bed homesick 'cause you are my home