Renovations

I took a break for a minute I had to chill
Focus my vision now there's things that I have to build
Like brick and mortar bit by bit, demolishing shit
That doesn't fit with my life, it's time to remodel the crib
Chandeliers to shine light on all of the problems I missed
Fill the void with flowers, Make joy from a bottemless pit
I'm sick of harboring shit that's making my heart sick
Cleaning all the cigarette burns up out the carpet
Picking up the bottles and turning 'em into vases
So the pain can have a purpose whenever I turn to face it
I'm sick of being complacent, lethargic and hard to manage
Bandage the parts I've damaged and harvest the garden planted
Playing the cards I'm handed and ante up what I owe
Making changes within myself letting go what I can't control
I'm a grown man feeling like a kid still
Spent my whole life trying to run away I'm learning how to sit still

Running away only gets you so far you know what I'm saying
No matter how far you run you can't out run yourself
I'm sick of running man, I'm trying to fix that
Do better, Be better you know
Sing it

Another day another dollar in the piggy bank
Spend my time trying to polish what I didn't break
I'd be lying if I say I didn't change
But I think it's for the best so I feel like it's okay
Took a lot of years to learn from my mistakes
Better late than never everything is going great
And even though letting go is scary
It's easy to be carefree if you ain't got no baggage that you carry
I'm just trying to change shit, dig up all the graves in my basement
Replace the skeletons with healthier foundations
I Found faith in myself and it feels amazing
Hating who I am is a game that I'm sick of playing
Strip away the rust dust if off and repaint it
Good as new, look at you go, get reacquainted
With the feeling of positive affirmation
Find a place to admire My rose pedals blooming through the pavement, I made it