this_isnt_me

This isn't me
This body isn't mine
I'm hurling towards the end of time
Its better for your sight
If you leave now
And don't look behind
You can see how
We've had the time of our lives

We can be heroes
I can be your lover
I just feel so needful
Do we need each other?
Maybe you don't
That's my biggest fear
But I feel so close when I'm holding you near

With a hand on my chest got a hand on your thigh
I can write a dozen songs but the best is in your eyes
Best is yet to come
Forward to my thoughts
I wanted to run cuz I found what I sought
And you find what you seek
And you seek what you want
So I doubt you want me
And I doubt you want songs
That'll leave you confused as to just how I feel
When all that you see is how I don't heal

And I spiral
Deep cycles
Thousands of thoughts
With no recitals
I won't say it
I won't sound stupid
New thoughts pop up
Got to keep moving

Feelings from that weekend are fading
By god, how can I save it?
You know there's no question you're my favorite
And I mean every word even though I couldn't save it

This isn't me
This body isn't mine
This body isn't mine
This body isn't mine

Good morning
New thoughts pop up
Where have you been
Let's get caught up
Don't question how I've been feeling
Don't question how I've been healing

I'm not

I don't think that's a secret
I wont hide how I've been swinging
Back and forth and imma get myself Syed out
Dont wanna lose anything because of my doubt

Im sorry that its gotten so intense
Im not losing any feelings im just battling my stress
Im not losing anything for you I need to find my head
To identify what I fight against

Im sorry that its all so internal
Im sorry when im going non verbal
Im sorry that it hasn't gotten better
Im sorry that you're hearing this in letters

Lets go on a ride and we'll force out some words
And I'm forcing myself just to feel some self worth
I've been working on it so I wont feel so hurt
When the day comes that you kick me to the curb

I had to shut down
But I don't know why
Im just filled with doubt
And its fulfilled by your eyes
I just wanna shout but I can't keep quiet
Got to get myself out of this mess that im in

This isn't me
This body isn't mine
This body isn't mine
This body isn't mine



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Writer(s): Lukey Pukey
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