I Lied

Well I blame it on my parents cause I guess I'm predisposed
To want things I shouldn't ever want and now it's getting old
And I blame it on the fantasies I built within my mind
It's a mechanism I discovered when I was a child
And I blame it on the sister that I never got to have
Maybe all of the attention is what did me in so bad
Cause I wake up with a burning in my body, in my chest
And I never find the answers to the questions on the test oh
I went and told you I was fine
Shouldn't have told you I was fine
Said I'd left it all behind
I lied, I lied
I went and told you I was good
Shouldn't have told you I was good
When I thought I never could
I lied, I lied
I-I-I-I lied, I lied
I-I-I-I lied, I lied
Well I blame it on the list of things I wrote inside my head
All the moments that I've longed for
All the things I've never said
Like; I wish that I was different
I wish that they would know me
I wish the weight was lifted
I wish that you would hold me

I went and told you I was fine
Shouldn't have told you I was fine
Said I'd left it all behind
I lied, I lied
I went and told you I was good
Shouldn't have told you I was good
When I thought I never could
I lied, I lied

I-I-I-I lied, I lied
I-I-I-

Wish that I could say I
I never let it phase me
That I don't lay down and cry
But I've been empty all this time

I went and told you I was I fine
Shouldn't have told you I was fine
Said I'd left it all behind
I lied, I lied
I went and told you I was good
Shouldn't have told you I was good
When I thought I never could
I lied, I lied

I went and told you I was I fine
Shouldn't have told you I was fine
Said I'd left it all behind
I lied, I lied
I went and told you I was good
Shouldn't have told you I was good
When I thought I never could
I lied, I lied

It's almost cathartic, the heartache
Brings me down to my knees almost every time
I told you I was fine, I told you I was fine
Oh
I lied, I lied