Change myself

RJ banks on the beat
I remember I ain't have nobody on my side
I be smiling like I'm good but I'm hurt on the inside
Gave em chance up after chance and all they did was lie
And I had tried to make it right and I ain't wanna make you cry
But I say I been all alone
Feelin like I been on my own
They ain't on that time that I'm on
The way they did me was wrong
I pack my bags and move on
I'm tryna find my way home

Every time they needin help I'm picking up I'm always there
I'm walkin on a long road and I'm almost there
To the place I belong
Them niggas know what I'm on
They know that I get it on
Feel like I'm not wrong
You can take me away from the hood can't take the hood up out of me
I'm feeling misunderstood and all them niggas doubted me
I wonder if my dad is proud of me
I been ballin they been fouling me
I give you what's left out of me
No they will not challenge me
I ain't trusting a soul
I want love but I don't know
What you did Can't let it go
And my pain I let it flow
Ion need it ion want it ion even know the purpose for it
They keep sayin Ima die I told them people that I'm ready for it
And I wanna change myself
And I wanna fade myself
Ready for all that pain I had to brace myself
And I stayed in my lane I had to heal myself

But I say I been all alone
Feelin like I been on my own
They ain't on that time that I'm on
The way they did me was wrong
I pack my bags and move on
I'm tryna find my way home

Give you all of me as long as I get all of you
Im expressing all my pain you don't know what I been through
I be wanting to off myself but I still be pulling through
Now it's my time for the win I remember I would lose
To see my momma happy and my dad proud that's all I want
They all be hating me they used to fuck with me and now they don't
But ion need em
Ion wanna see em
They hate me when I leave em
I just wanna be lone
Give myself some time that's what I do ion wanna be in this
Thinking bout my dawg and how he gone and I just reminisce
Waisting time up on them people who ain't wanna see me go to the top
They just wanna see me fall so they can see that I flopped
And I wanna change myself
And I wanna fade myself
Ready for all that pain I had to brace myself
And I stayed in my lane I had to heal myself

I remember I ain't have nobody on my side
I be smiling like I'm good but I'm hurt on the inside
Gave em chance up after chance and all they did was lie
And I had tried to make it right and I ain't wanna make you cry
But I say I been all alone
Feelin like I been on my own
They ain't on that time that I'm on
The way they did me was wrong
I pack my bags and move on
I'm tryna find my way home
And I wanna change myself
And I wanna fade myself
Ready for all this pain I had to brace myself
And I been all alone I had to heal myself