Eulogy

(You did good, $lick) when I, when I, when I
When I die, fuck it, I wanna go to hell
When I, when I, when I, when I
When I die, fuck it, I wanna go to hell
When I, when I, when I, when I, when I

3 a.m., drinkin' with this pistol on my lap, uh
Six medications, guess there ain't no fixin' that (when I die)
It's that broken motherfucker, knucklin' 'til I relapse
If I die, they might cry 'til they inherit my stacks, uh (when I die)

Cold fuckin' world, tell me, what's the word?
Only time I speak my heart is when the message come out slurred, uh
People pleasin', always eager to fix a motherfucker's problems
Leave me at the bottom, more comfortable with Gomorrah and Sodom (when I die)

I chew on Fent' and rot my teeth
All for moments of peace and slow heartbeats (when I die)
Got offered a God I dissed, who gon' save me? (Hmph)
All I could do is laugh and say, "C'est la vie", uh, yeah (when I die)

Woe is me, I know you get the picture, uh
This type of pain will earn you seven figures
Check my DNA, my RNA come with predictors
This shit is scripture and for what I got there's no elixirs, uh (when I die)

Feel like I'm not enough, uh
Find myself playin' my dad like Honey Boy and Shia LaBeouf (when I die)
My mama cryin' as she watch the clock
Text my bro I love him, even though he got my number blocked (when I die)

I would give up everythin' to see my brothers clean
No second thoughts, it's fuck the cost or take me, leave 'em be
Take my money, say you love me even if it's lies
That connection's so depressin', but it's all I got (when I die)

When I die, just play this fuckin' song
I was never meant for this, been tortured just to carry on (when I die)
Couple coupes, lotta zeroes and a couple homes
None of it did shit for me, cock the pistol, and now I'm- (when I die)

Aight, head in the clouds, it look like it might rain again
Always holdin' back tears, it's how I manage to pay the rent (when I die)
Pay the bills, place the bet, so I don't have to chase the check
Verified through $uicide, the glitz and glamour came and went (when I die)

Wash my fuckin' soul, there's still that one stain is kept
I just wanna be loved, the root of all my pain
Except the type that comes with age and death
I can finally lay and rest, I'm owed a little peace

And I'm ready to erase the debt (I, I, I, I, when I die)
I never planned on showin' the world the face that hides behind the mask
I always thought the last thing I would hear would be the gun's blast (when I die)
Fill in the black hole in my chest with sex and drugs, but it never lasts, it never lasts (when I die)

Shit, two years ago Big Pharma shoulda just cashed me out
Now I got a deviated septum, I'ma just rat me out
Pat me down, ask me how I'm still depressed
All they see is my set, all they see is lack of debt (when I die)

All they see is what they wanna see, callin' me a wannabe
I don't wanna be in misery, exit the pharmacy (when I die)
Get a girl I wanna see, I wanna see how hard I bleed
When she rips out my fuckin' heart, enter the pharmacy (when I die)

I'm a private person and take pride in my verses
Fuck your whole opinion, I don't care if it worsens
I'll ruin my reputation and make sure it's on purpose
Fuck this shit (when I die)

When I die, just play this fuckin' song
I was never meant for this, been tortured just to carry on (when I die)
Couple coupes, lotta zeroes and a couple homes
None of it did shit for me, cock the pistol, and now I'm gone (when I die)

Fuck it, I wanna go to hell
When I, when I, when I, when I
When I die, fuck it, I wanna go to hell
When I, when I, when I, when I, when I die