When I'm Gone

Girl, tell me how you been
I know it's been awhile since we last spoke
Shit there was tears up my shirt, when we last smoked
Probably got you wondering why I was asshole
Laughin through my pain, it turned my life into bad joke

You were always there, you would always care for me
Even when my family wasn't even there for me
You pushed me in ways, that I ain't been pushed before
Introduced me to a love that softer than velour
And I ain't lying, man I put this on my grave
I swear to every single god, that I won't ever be the same
Would say ya name
But I'm knowin that you know that this about you
If you listening to this, just know its hard without you
You were the only one that understood my mental
Anxiously attaching to ya
Wrapped around ya ankles
Had to keep the grip, cause if I slipped
It could be fateful
Codependency lending me rope
Trauma holding us close
And I'm so grateful
That you were even there at all
That you would stay wit me, even truly care at all
Now I'm carrying the weight of all my lies, and all your "what the fuck, why's"
And I ain't trippin cause you cut me out the picture
I just gotta know whether your done with me or wit it
Still
Cause I all do is think about you
But I don't think that you know that
Missin when you pulled up with the trees, and told me "roll that"
Projected all my problems, and I swear it make me so mad
To know that now
You in my subconscious
This shit is so bad now
I daydrink after I meditate
There's demons at the heaven gates
I met em when left my soul up at that park
That saturday
They showed me that I need to feel my feelings and get through this shit
Cause honestly I'm new to it
Nobody ever told me it was okay to vulnerable
Nobody ever showed me good examples of love
Now I'm getting through it, but I wish I could be holding you
I'm focused on the positive, but thoughts do run, still

Kinda wish I had a fuckin gun still awh
Pop pop
That's one, in the head
Pop pop
That's two now I'm dead
Pop pop pop
Aw lawd listen here
Would you listen to my songs, when im gone
Would you listen to my songs, when im gone
Would you, would you listen to my songs when im gone
Would you listen to my songs, when im gone
Would you, would you listen to my

Can't believe that we ain't talkin but i understand what's up now
The less I focus on this and do me i get in touch now
2022 I swear to god Ima be good
Something bout this energy
Is telling me should
Drop all this music, let my niggas get into it ahhh
I wanna be a great one day, Go carve me in some wood ahhh
All I want for Christmas is for you to hit my phone
I don't got a need to go and compliment these hoes
I could write a million songs and still be in the wrong
Which I understand but I can't stand when I'm alone girl
I been in my own world
Sorry for this song, I know it's long
But it's my feelings
I needs spit em somewhere
And some people say they feel it
Some people like to listen
They hit me on the daily
Tellin me how they relate
That's the shit that keep me going
Throw away the drugs I take
I think it's fate, that we met
And it's hard to just neglect it
I hope you actually got the message cause I sent it
Every word is from my heart, so know I meant it

Kinda wish I had a fuckin gun still awh
Pop pop
That's one, in the head
Pop pop
That's two now I'm dead
Pop pop pop
Aw lawd listen here
Would you listen to my songs, when im gone
Would you listen to my songs, when im gone
Would you, would you listen to my songs when im gone
Would you listen to my songs, when im gone
Focused on the positive, but thoughts do run, still

Kinda wish I had a fuckin gun still awh
Pop pop
That's one, in the head
Pop pop
That's two now I'm dead
Pop pop pop
Aw lawd listen here
Would you listen to my songs, when im gone
Would you listen to my songs, when im gone
Would you, would you listen to my songs when im gone
Would you listen to my songs, when im gone
Would you, would you listen to my