gone so long

I've been gone so long, feels like I forgot

I've been gone so long, do they know I'm gone?
(Do they know I'm gone?)

Couple thousand on the highway
Can't recall the last convo on the driveway
Was it summer, was it spring, was it fall?
Was I getting too attached
When the trauma got involved?

Saw my first snowfall at the old place
Mountain drives, all the time, kept my soul based
Hour trip to your grandmas house
Sweet tea from the fridge, on a worn out couch

So comfy, that's a metaphor, I know it is
You took a trip to Cali, my anxiety was growing quick
Paranoid of the world around me
Couldn't even keep calm on a family outing, ah

Therapy sessions, I finally made it back
But honestly it was too late for that
You moved on before I moved out
Now the distance between us is
Something that I always think about

I've been gone so long, feels like I forgot
I forgot, but I'm really lying
Been gone for so long, why am I like this?
I've been searching wide, for what isn't bought
Lotta money, but I can't buy it
Looking dumb every time so I'm done trying, yeah
I wish I found a way to be there all along

I've been gone so long, do they know I'm gone?
(Do they know I'm gone?)