Requiem

Cross my arms lay me down in my grave
Falling asleep, why must you be
My only escape
Lay me to rest
I lie in my wake
The thorns in my bed
Feel your breath on my face

Me and my friends all threatened to sue God
If he fucked us over one more time
And I've been trying to reach him
I'm forgetting his number

We all grew up in a couple of days
And said a lot of prayers in fear that we set on fire
I told him to send me to Hell
But I'm still alive

I know that I'm still growing up but you had to split my life in two
I fear at times I've felt enough but this always feels like something new

Your favorite color always threatened to change I should have known my worth
You cured my writer's block
And I'm so glad that you hurt me
Thanks for the content

And all I could think in my glorious rage was do tears stain shirts
Because they fell a lot
You were so unearthly
To think you were godsent

At times I feel like throwing up as I wrap my head up in your noose
You could have said I'd been enough but I couldn't help but feel reused

(It all comes falling down)
My eyes keep on falling
Asleep and I'm falling
So deep in your calling
My dreams aren't calming
These sirens alarming
I looked past those warnings
We'll speak in the morning
I'll keep on performing
For you

Maybe I could find something
Else for you
Intricate objects
Deserving affection
From innocent places
I'd pay for your safety
Don't beg me to stay
Please keep changing your ways
Thinking

Maybe if i found something else
To distract me from feeling
The weight that you hold on me
I could be
Something you step on I can't keep my head on straight
If I bleed would you feel anything
I feel everything

In my dreams of you now
I feel a shame that I had known
Sometimes I think of you way too much
I wish it was something that I controlled

I feel your breath on my face
I can't look the other way

When I think about it now
I hesitate to speak your name
Fearing that those words might conjure your touch
Now I realize that feelings can turn so cold

And I'll be alright
Can I be alright?
Will you be alright?
Cause I can't be somebody else for you

I can't believe I let you near my heart
But now I realize I'd mistaken you for something that I'd known
Would be alright
Will you be alright?
I'll be alright
And I should finally let you go