No Shade

A lot of pain inside my eyes as I wake up.
It's not a secret but dammit I gotta get this cake up.
Pay the rent on time and keep the internet flowing.
I wish my daddy could see me now and the places I'm going.
I wish we never had that argument and talked things out.
I guess it's freedom of expression is it just played out?
I know the world don't understand the shit I'm talking about.
My world was turning upside down and I could use a way out.
Look.
U caught me as I fell down the steps.
The Lord sent me back a miracle he's keeping me blessed.
But you've changed, you're not the same girl I used to ask for help.
So now you saying that it's over?
Leaving me by myself.
Damn.
You like to party places that was once restricted.
Disrespecting ya mama every chance you get addicted.
Watched me as I turned into a monster of sorts.
It's my reflection in your face that makes me question my thoughts.
Your living lives I used to dream
of living damn your acting different.
Wanting me to listen I got too much issues so I'm tripping.
I can't trust none of my niggas or the folks I was raised with.
Sit down and listen to me this is something you can't fix.
Please.
Excuse the contents of my language.
My father taught me say what's on your mind or don't say shit.
I don't know how this story is supposed to be finished.
It's been 11 years and now it's been the end of the sentence.
I've been replenished.
I can't stand when I'm disrespected.
Yes I have some resentment i wasn't there to accept it.
Without a question,
this is me and you talking I love you hold you
in my arms and kiss you right while I'm walking.
I know you feel like I'm the reason you've been feeling depressed.
And I be feeling like you were the one that's causing me stress.
You got yo life and I got mine and I can't lie I've been blessed.
The negativity and hatred let's just put it to rest.
I'm not a bad person.
I'm just Petty by nature.
I said the shit piss you off and tried to humiliate you.
Ain't no telling what I'll do or even shit that I can't.
Sitting back writing these letters just to get my advance.
Damn.
Stop complaining, keep your legs closed,
leave them sucker niggas that don't pay attention to you alone.
Get ya money up baby, cause you a star on your own.
Just be happy for yourself cause you gone miss me when I'm gone.

Aye.
Listen.
Tell me how you feel about the situation.
Ayo G, talk to em.

Yo Yo Yo.
All the fussing and the arguing we had back to back.
Been the homie 11 years how the fuck we do that.
Been riding witchu since day 1 never crossed the line.
Always been right there, right by your side.
Gave you advice when you needed it and never showed you nothing wrong.
Always protected yo ass, so you could be strong.
And when your father died I told you it was alright.
An angel in disguise never clear outta sight.