indecisive

First started as a rapper
But now I'm really tryna blend it (yeah)
Have to watch what I say
Cuz I don't want those to get offended (nah)
Had so many people look at me funny
I'm tryna show them that I meant it (yeah)
It's a long way to go
But I know I won't see where the end is
And for the intro, I gotta look into my deep soul
My head moving all over the place
Going different directions
I don't know where my head is
Falling into the madness
That's a place I don't want to descend in
But maybe I have to just to learn my lesson
Myself is someone I'm forgetting
I don't know where my legacy's heading
I don't know if I can spread my emotional message, yeah
I look back when everything was stripped from me
Shouldn't dwell on the past cuz that's history
I rewind all the times where you looked me in the eyes
And you told me don't let things get to me
But it's hard when I Hated myself
Resorted to drugs, the gas, elevated myself
I was breaking myself
Piece by piece, I tried to fix it all
But it only complicated myself
Like why couldn't I be the man that you wished for
I tell myself everyday you should of did more
I tell myself everyday just to let it be
Don't dwell on the past with the memories
But how are you telling me after literally everything
That something that I caused was apart of the plan
Like it's something I planned
Like you gotta trust the process
I don't think i can trust ever again, nah
No never again
I got scars that only show in the light
With the look on my face I don't gotta say a single word
To let you know That I was never alright, nah
I was never alright
It's okay cuz I'm hanging on for dear life
Yeah, for dear life...
It's okay cuz I'm hanging on for dear life
First started as a rapper
But now I'm really tryna blend in (yeah)
I pour my heart out for you
I don't want to sound desperate (nah)
I live a dangerous life
It takes a lot of deciding
Actions speak louder than words
My thunder is in no comparison to my lightning (nah)
I'm tired of fighting
I'm indecisive, yeah
I'm still tryna find it



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