Foolish Run II

This how it feels to see a ghost (Blurs)
This how it feels between your toes (Grass)
This how it feels on Cali sand (Views)
This how it feels to see an old friend (Youth)

There is no such thing as closure
I heard excuses now that I have grown older
Yeah, I'll remind you that I found love
Yeah, I'll remind you that I redefined me through refined love
But I'll remind you that you can't really define love
I was mortified but nobody else was more defined
I'll admit my own flaws
From the little things like how I know I should floss
To the bigger things like lashing out when I'm lost
Promised I would work on being better
But I was too depressed so I was bitter
Thought you were gold but not all of you glittered
Well you did a little but it was a shimmer
And I don't want to call you cuz I'm worried that you won't pick up
And I don't want to text you cuz their emotions are corrupt
And I wanna knock on your door
But I don't know where it is
So instead I'm making a song about how I forgive you, bro
Where is that door?

I hope you've grown a little more
Not in age but in morale
Know who you should trust the most
Because you know him well

And if you cannot see that it shouldn't be
Our friend who'd block his closest friends before apologies
Then that's just how it be
I'm busy working on me
But this ain't a defamation case
No Depp v. Heard, what's heard is affirmation laced
I've honestly lived my life honesty based
I still care about you, bro
Even though I don't talk about you, bro
I've just been moving on without you, bro
And all that's left of you is in my gallery
And our old files in my audio library
I'm giving the clips new purposes just like I'm repurposing myself
Cuz you can't help someone when they can't help themself
I don't know how to activate it
But it activated when you acted as my friend
But unrelated to my problems
And I hope that one day you'll see
What it did to me
It's almost been a year

This how it feels when my friends ignored us
This how it feels to lose some of your trust
Flexin on your doubts
Flexin on your doubts
Didn't know you had it in you, so who held you down?
How did you get past that, yeah, how did you bounce?
I mean, did you rebound?
How'd you get lost to found?
Not with the help of your best friend?
Didn't wanna get involved, too much for them then?
My oldest friend and I helped each other out
While we were both going through shit
Contrast with no contacting you by now for I got tired of some shit
And I'll admit
I gave some too like when I said shut the fuck up
And I fucked up by saying I could improve
But I was too fucked up
Just my luck
What is up with this distance?
I don't get it
I'll go the distance, I will get it
I'll open up my heart right now
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