Eulogy

Empty trains under first light
The lovers outside our window utter their hushed goodbye
And you reach for my hand across the table
You tell me you're on the first train
Bags are packed, conscience weighs heavy
You know I won't see you again

You with your burden of knowledge
You couldn't even look me in the eye
You knew I knew, this was what you wanted
You didn't have the courage to say goodbye
So you packed up our home and you left
In secret you'd emptied your shelves
Walked out the door like you were never there
There was no trace of you anywhere

I asked you to leave so you covered your tracks
I wanted to scream but you never looked back
Your memory fades but this pain is a ghost
Haunted by whispers that linger like smoke

Now the hallway is empty, the picture frames always blank
Took them down when the smiles turned to smirks
And laughter behind my back
Dusty corners, that box I can't open
The irony cuts too deep
Pictures to preserve a past for a future you felt you could leave
Well what about me? What about me

I asked you to leave so you covered your tracks
I started to scream but you never looked back
Your memory fades but this pain is a ghost
Haunted by whispers that linger like smoke
God I wish you'd never spoken to me

Museum
Mausoleum
Let me grieve
I'd trade this red hot shame for a eulogy
I'd bawl like a baby, I'd paint you a saint
And though the eyes filled with sorrow remain all the same
That shadow has gone
The black cloud over my head
The death I couldn't mourn
The stranger in my bed
Oh he's dead
Finally dead

Caught out by the cold I hold my breath
Catch myself listening for your feet fall on the steps
Your cough in the kitchen, your key in the lock
I remember the things you'd have thought I'd forgot
And each time I remember it hits me twice as hard
The silence is deafening
This loneliness scars

Before I'd asked you to leave you had covered your tracks
You drowned out my screams
And you never looked back
My memory fades but this pain is a ghost
And it will haunt you and hurt you
Get you when you're alone
You'll rue the day you ever spoke
To me