enough

I guess it's time for me to calm down, but all these winter feelings are such a bitch
And i guess it doesn't help that i, usually tend to get sick around this time and i just
I wanna try, i wanna be better, i wanna be good
It all just feels so pointless, like it doesn't really matter how hard i try
Cause in the end, in the end it's just a big ol pizza pie... no

In the end, it feels like... it was all for nothing
Why is it all for nothing

I try and i try so much, but it's never enough
Why is that
Why couldn't i be enough, why oh why is it never enough
And how come no one really understands me, or what i'm feeling

I just for once want someone to pick me, and love me no matter what
I'm trying, oh i swear i promise i'm really really trying
But at this time, i'm struggling
I really am, i'm struggling and i don't really know how to reach out, to any of my friends
Because none of them understand, none of them know... how i really am
And i'm sorry if you're listening, for acting like a jackass, actin like a prick
Just, doing whatever the hell i did in general

I wanna know why i'm never enough, for anyone