Memorandum

Sometimes, I wish everything would go away
Just die, or cease to exist
You can't see what's inside of me
Lost from the fall
Free from it all in the blink of an eye

I die inside when I lie about the suffering I hide
You never knew what I went through
What is it inside me that feels so broken?
I grit my teeth and say "it's all gonna be fine" but I know its not when I look myself in the mirror and I grit my teeth and lie and say that I'm okay when I know it's not
It's all bullshit

Worthless fucking cunt
Lead to a dead end with a mirror in the ditch
Lie to my face and say it's better in the end
Last breath I take, won't give a fuck about a bitch
Live in the past and die with empty answers
I know I dont give a fuck about this but I'm out of excuses for why I'm like this
What's the fucking use of explaining if no one's going to fucking understand this adolescent hate birthed in bunk beds

Part of me can see and fight but I feel like I'm loosing sight
Keep looking for that place to call home in the dead of the night
Every night, I'm preparing for the day
But I dont think I'll leave this life with much else to say
I know I'm not gonna make it

I know I don't give a fuck about the life that I'm going to leave behind
An endless circle
Only to find out that home is not what's in sight
Everything I put myself through was for fucking nothing
Just a bad taste in my mouth
Always looking for something

Sometimes, I wish every thing would go away
Just die, or cease to exist
You can't see what's inside of me
Bite down on the 9
Squeeze and make my world a better place

It's all so fucking self-indulgent
Staring in the mirror like I'm waiting for my lines
What is it inside me that feels so broken?
A void in time I fell in or the void inside?
It's all so fucking self-indulgent
Staring in the mirror like I'm waiting for my lines
What is it inside me that feels so broken?
A void in time I fell in or the void inside?



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Writer(s): Jondoe_ 87
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