play it again

This confusion of mine is a bleak overtone
Falling down telephones of not knowing what to say
My smiles fall to hold and my sighs to groans
Trying to remember the simple transitions today
Sometimes I flinch to every little sound
And sometimes my friends look like a crowd
Doesn't ever seem like I'm going anywhere
But at least I'm getting there from somewhere

Played the part way too many times
People only wanted me when they were in need
So now I'll lay in my bed, too high
Trying to invent a new god of self-esteem
Strangely enough I discover moments of peace
But a shadowy film still produces melancholy
Doesn't ever seem like I'm going anywhere
But at least I'm getting there from somewhere

(But at least I'm getting there from somewhere)

When I can't talk I'll walk the block
Wonder where are all those people again
Listening to thoughts in my right ear, hiding from clocks
Curious if they still call me a friend
Don't know where this cement trail leads
Or if I'm walking or the ground turns underneath
Doesn't ever seem like I'm going anywhere
At least I'm getting lost than going nowhere

Maybe your god hates me
At least I'm getting lost than going nowhere