In My Head

I'm always in my head, I don't know what living is
I be breathing, heart beating, hoping I could feel a thing
Look around to take it in, but never really take it in
Feeling with my thoughts, not feeling with emotions

Imagine having money, girls, cars, barely any scars

Would you think that my struggles ain't worth as much?
Would you think less of me like I ain't man enough?
Would you wait on the side till you hear applause?
Would you think that I'm lost, like I don't pray to god?

Does it matter what you think? Well prolly not
But I'm explaining why I'm being so self-conscious

Cause so much consumptions, way less assumptions
Soak in the pressures and hope god does something

But shit never change, I believe that's the test
Nothing is promised but angel of death

Do I seek for forgiveness? Even when my soul don't think its in mischief
Or do I seek for some therapy? Even when mind doesn't think it needs clarity
Do I seek for death? Thinking to myself its eternal rest
Or do I just keep breathing? Inhale, exhale inside my head

Distractions

She straight up lying bout where she has been (Where she has been)
And I just have to act like I believe
Her homie want me dead I know I see (I know I see)
But she want more than and him and you and me

I bought her Luis V right out the store (Right out the store)
But then she said she want Christian Dior (Don't question it)
I got a souvenir of us in Rome
She said she wanted one in Moscow

Always thought that I could do this (Always thought that I could do this)
I never doubted what I wanna do bitch (Never doubted one bit)
I swear I'm always so focused
Everything so clear no emotions (Always)

I'm ahead of my time (Always)
And it feels so right
Take a pic, boost it on Instagram, a billion likes

I'm so attractive, I'm no reactor
I sit in silence, act like I'm ha-

I mean like I'm happy, look at what's happening
I'm on a beach with a girl with an accent
I'm undefeated, an owner of mansions
I'm in my element, it's how I manage
Never defending shit, buy your own casket
Buy a new car cause I'm wanting that fast shit

But what if I crash it?
What if this greenery ain't everlasting?

As fast as it came, as fast as it goes
As fast as I fast from this money and hoes

I'll pass it along cause I'm fascinated
To see if this money gon' make you take shit

Maybe it's me
Maybe I'm still in my head not on feet
Maybe my head isn't safe as seems
Maybe my cravings just step out and leave
Maybe all my sins could all be relieved

Maybes on maybes it's just how it be