lo-feels

I don't want stop feeling even if it hurt
Even the flower need to get some dirt
All my surroundings start to really blur
That's when the ground will suddenly invert
Upside down
Sun shine bound
Carnal criticisms making uptight clouds
Some find out that a numb life pounds
But you can't feel the pain until it snuffs life out
Keep me strong enough to feel the sadness In my soul
Not turn it into anger the illusion of control
Keep me brave enough to have a heart unguarded
It's dangerous cus' the angst might barge in
Is there more to life
To be fortified
Will I be poor inside
Is there really joy to find
In not avoiding time spent
Opening eye lids
Looking for God and
Praying that I find Him
Looking for God and praying that I find Him
Looking for God

I feel like when I'm all on my own
I don't let go
I'm a regret it
Seems like when I'm hurting the most
Know that your close
Know that you said it
And I would rather feel than feel nothing
Don't know if it's real
Or I'm over thinking
I'm far from giving up
But right now I think I've had enough

I would rather be sad than to be gone
Time is treasure but it's passing it don't last long
My endeavors betray me just like a bad song
I'm off the measure
When my tempo doesn't match Gods
I've been feeling at way deep levels
I've been dealing with crazy pressure
I'm revealing the way these devils
Manipulate your mental state and say don't feel ever
I took a scary turn
Made bigger barriers
And tried to bury hurt
In my backyard broken
To block off where it hurts
Only prepares for worse
Now they can't share their worth
Cus' your hearts not open
Is there more to life
To be fortified
Will I be poor inside
Is there really joy to find
In not avoiding time spent
Opening eye lids
Looking for God and
Praying that I find Him
Looking for God and praying that I find Him
Looking for God

I feel like when I'm all on my own
I don't let go
I'm a regret it
Seems like when I'm hurting the most
Know that your close
Know that you said it
And I would rather feel than feel nothing
Don't know if it's real
Or I'm over thinking
I'm far from giving up
But right now I think I've had enough
I feel like when I'm all on my own
And I don't let go
I'm a regret it
Seems like when I'm hurting the most
I know that your close
I know that you said it