The Things I Wish I'd Said

Since you've been gone, I've felt abandoned
Like a ship without a sail
I want my feet back on the ground
But the current's keeping me away
It's like my chest has been hit with a hammer
The feeling of loss is so blunt
Trying to come to terms and learn to cope
But that's easier said than done

Things haven't felt right since you've been gone
I feel like I'll never know what it's like to be at home again
I'll keep spending my nights alone in every crowded room

I'll stay distant forever

I keep going back to the lake
To try to find some inner peace
But all I'm finding are memories
I feel lost and so alone
I got the feeling of hopelessness
I got the feeling of loneliness in my chest
I never got to say goodbye
And I can't stop my mind from repeating all the things I wish I'd said
I try to shake it off, I can't shake it off
How will I find closure?
I'm so alone
And now I can't stop shaking

Things haven't felt right since you've been gone
I feel like I'll never know what it's like to be at home again
I'll keep spending my nights alone in every crowded room

I'll stay distant forever

I've been despondent
Self-destructive
I've been explosive and unreserved
I've been angry at the world
It doesn't seem real
I thought you'd be here
I thought you'd never go
But now I'm so alone

I'll never know how to feel at home
I'll never know how to feel at home
I'll never know how to feel at home
Why'd you have to go?
I'll never know how to feel at home
I'll never know how to feel at home
I'll never know how to feel at home
Why'd you have to go?

I went back to the lake
Thought of all the time we had
And although it was short-lived
I wouldn't take a minute back