Agony/Ecstasy (feat. Ricky Armellino)

I showed up with ambitions
And saw that they're just dreams
I stayed true to the mission
The blueprints of my schemes
This world was mine to outwit then
Cause I never minded the risk
But I had a flaw that could ruin it all
I had too many heartbeats to care

I used to remember a happiness
Good feeling deep inside
Now just emptiness
With no place to hide
I used to feel only pain, soon it became despair
I forgot how to laugh and how to care

And so the pain runs deeper
Tearing into my heart
The agony brings on the tears
Ripping my dreams apart
The ecstasy it doesn't last long enough to give me time to think
I try to grasp at visions
I just lose more and sink

Its as though the pain was a being
Drilled a knife into my soul
I lost the memories of
Smiles and love
Its as though the being had
Killed the dove
Chipped away at my mind
My senses dulled

My senses dulled

And so the pain runs deeper
Tearing into my heart
The agony brings on the tears
Ripping my dreams apart
The ecstasy it doesn't last long enough to give me time to think
I try to grasp at visions
I just lose more and sink

Its taken everything
My courage, soul, myself
I've given in to apathy
I no longer want any help

Although my body still lives on my spirit died long ago
I'm now a lifeless shell, I don't care
I don't know

And so the pain runs deeper
Tearing into my heart
The agony brings on the tears
Ripping my dreams apart
The ecstasy it doesn't last long enough to give me time to die
I see the visions
But I no longer care why

The agony and ecstasy
Have battled and I paid the cost
The war will rage forever but not for me
I've lost