Insane/Staircases

I'm going insane again

I'm seeing the image
Of people who died
In my motha fucking brain again

I'm going insane again

I'm seeing the image
Of people who died
In my motha fucking brain again
My shawty concerned
I picked up the herb
To numb all the pain again

Ain't close my eyes
I been losing sleep
Ain't call my doctor
In two whole weeks
Ain't make no progress
I know i been tweaking

I'm going insane again

I'm seeing the image
Of people who died
In my motha fucking brain again

My shawty concerned
I picked up the herb
To numb all the pain again

Ain't close my eyes
I been losing sleep
Ain't call my doctor
In two whole weeks
Ain't make no progress
I know i been tweaking

I feel like i blamed myself
I feel like i drain myself
I don't even feel like I'm me
When we speaking
I feel like i changed myself

There be days where the pain get felt
There be days where i aim for help
There be days where the weed
Don't do shit for me
Those the days i wan bang myself

I run from
The demons
That sit on my shoulder
I know for a fact they be chasing me

My intention to lead with the lead
On the paper instead
Leads to dreams of erasing me

My momma keep telling me pray
For salvation
I know that she constantly pray for me

She got a stronger faith in God
I don't think that God feel the same bout me

I'm going insane again

I'm seeing the image
Of people who died
In my motha fucking brain again

My shawty concerned
I picked up the herb
To numb all the pain again

Ain't close my eyes
I been losing sleep
Ain't call my doctor
In two whole weeks
Ain't make no progress
I know i been tweaking

I'm going insane again
I'm seeing the image
Of people who died

In my motha fucking brain again

My shawty concerned
I picked up the herb
To numb all the pain again

Ain't close my eyes
I been losing sleep
Ain't call my doctor
In two whole weeks
Ain't make no progress
I know i been tweaking

I'm going insane again
I'm going insane
I'm going insane
I'm going insane again
I'm going insane
I'm going insane
I'm going insane again
I'm going insane
I'm going insane
I'm going insane again
I'm going insane
I'm going insane
I'm going insane again

I prayed that God would save us
But then the other day
My mother learned
My cousin killed himself
And I'm wondering why
Her God betrayed us

I hide my face
I'm consumed with rage
For the man who made us

I seen my faith my tried

On pace to be atheist
Since Shanae died

I'm staring at these caskets
I've never needed my face dried

The tears don't seem to follow
For years the pain get swallowed
Appearance of a saint
You peer inside and see me hollow
And my peers
All look the same as me
So clearly there a Motto

You only Live once
But we living to see tomorrow
The future brings impending waves
Of sorrow
Can't nobody change us

I prayed that God would save us
But then the other day
My mother learned

There's nothing more destructive
Than covering up the couple burns
That show we been through hell
In attempt to rise from these rugged terms

How do God pick and choose
Who survives

My loved ones meet they fate
While the villains
Still move alive

The hard retaliation
Of arming self up with hatred
In hopes to get my revenge
Is no different than suicide

How many more times I gotta pray?

How many more times
We in this church?

How many more times
I got pallbearer
The weight the of decease
While my shoulders bear
They life through all my work

Shit,

Everything is good
Until the good is placed in graves
My faith is based on patience
And my patience starting fade

Momma found her
God inside the church

I found my God
Inside the wave

Off a bottle of the clear

We can't be saved, nigga